Today was pretty good. Church was weird, but I had Jesse, Benjamin, Nolan, and Daniel over to shoot some airsoft. My MP5 hurts like CRAP! I have half a dozen welts all over my body. War wounds, shall we say. Despite an awesome day, I've experienced another low.

I just can't take school. It feels like I'm holding my breath all week and I don't get air until the weekend. But I develop a growing air deficit, and I don't get the air I so badly need until a break. It's a weird metaphor, but it's how I feel. The depressing thing is, I know I can be a 4.0 student. But it takes so much work! I can just slack off and maintain a 3.4, so I just do that, when I know I can do better. I know I've hardly had any school the past two weeks, but I know what's coming. There's isn't a single break in all of March. I pray the Lord will keep me going for that long.

Please, pray that I can use the gifts God has given me. I know I can do better, but I just feel like it's for naught.