An arguable statement, but at least partially true in a non-religious context. My recent days have been overly sober, not as spontaneous or as wantonly enjoyable as I normally keep them. Jonothan's time here has been a reality check for me - recently, I'd begun reducing life to simple equations, which, if worked, Einstein would have found them already. Jonothan told me how the big things right now are really actually small - no matter how mature or how smart you handle matters or approach them. A quick glance at my past and those of my friends has proven his point. I've been struggling with this in how I treat these seemingly big matters - should I treat them with any less delicacy or ferocity? My postulate: no. They're big matters now because there are no matters bigger than those I'm facing - you take things in proportion.

With this in mind, I was blown away when Rachel called Jonothan on his cell, and he picked up. When he was done with a short conversation with her, I asked him why he picked up. His reply: "We're adults.". You have no idea how much that scares me - I'm afraid to pick up the phone when my lawn mowing customers are calling to get me to mow their lawn one more time. I guess this is where that proportion thing comes in.

What do you do, though, when something out of proportion enters in the fray? Amanda told me about a friend of hers, who's being abused, but nothing can be done because he's about to turn 18, and his parents are habitual liars. It's times like that I wonder "where's the justice? no, really, where'd it go?". When all I can do is pray for him, I'm reminded that God does have a plan here, and that plan may not include me saving the day. A frustrating concept, to be sure.

Saturday night Daniel came over and we watched the rest of Fullmetal, talked, etc.. Sunday was normal, Benjamin came over, we played around in GIMP (I made a few that I found particularly cool - 1, 2, and 3). Today, I stayed home sick (I do have that flu, you kn0w). I woke up to Jonothan handing me a plate of bacon and an egg + cheese + english muffin thing (they'd call them egg McMuffin's at McDonald's, but I dunno what they're actually called).

Beyond that, my musical tastes have been expanded a little bit - I've grown keen on two bands recently. Aireline and Muse (I doubt anyone's heard of the former, but Paul's heard of Muse, so maybe someone else has heard of it). In any case, I still like the techno, I just like some other stuff too. *cough*