This week has sucked. Not in that "oh teh woe is teh me, my girlfriend has left meeee" or "omg world must die omg", but that "i'm tired, i'm hungry, i'm cold, and i'm still not done with my homework" kind of way. I'm not actually cold, or any of those right now, but that's the general feeling I've had all week. I've had no time to socialize during the week. Monday through Friday have been spent hard at work improving those grades I got.

• German 3H, Bronfenbrenner: D
• Math 10H, House: C
• Principles of Engineering, Peters: Passing (probably A or B)
• Global 2H, Rumney: C
• Programming 2, Teukolsky: C
• English 10H, Asklar: F
• Chemistry, Smith: D
• PE, Palmer: B

These are officially the worst grades I've ever recieved in my lifetime. My first D's ever, my second F ever (first was last quarter, remember), and the most C's ever on one card. Unacceptable, to say the least. The grades have all risen by about one letter by now (that's how much I've been doing). You know what? I'm gonna say it again. I hate Mary, German, I hate it all. Every time I step into Ms. Smith's room I want to shoot myself, just from listening to her for 45 minutes. That counts for an entire month's worth of being emo, so I'll stop there.

In addition to fixing grades, which have caused the generic lack of sleep, and an increased hunger, other things have been happening. Most important of all is that of a recent reform to my creationist beliefs. I was what is knows as a YEC (young-earth creationist, they believe God created the world in a 6-day period, instantaneously). Due to recent evidence I came across while doing research for a bible study lesson I was teaching last Tuesday, I've changed my opinion rather drastically. I had previously had good faith in the Big Bang, simply due to the empirical evidence already available, but had not actively pursued trying to apply it to the Bible. Upon reading, I came to the conclusion that the Big Bang and Evolution work in a Biblical context - they are not the enemies of common Christian theology. You have to know my history to understand how big of a change this is. You're reading the blog of a boy who stood up in front of his 7th grade Life Science class to debate evolution, and had several almost heated discussions with his teacher. This is a guy who's argued with at least a dozen people over the physical evidence for evolution, almost on a regular basis. I really believed evolution had been disproven and was prepped to collapse in on itself. I didn't just change all that in a moment, you see. It's taken a good 20-25 hours of researching this week to get me to a point where evolution is believable in a scientific context. I still have my doubts, and I may not accept evolution in the end, but it's comforting in a lot of ways knowing that I don't have to fight it anymore. It sapped a lot of energy from me, always arguing and struggling against my friends over it. If nothing else, I've gained a more open mind. If you'd like to see my resources on this, just give me a line, I'll be glad to show you. For now, I supply to you a rather important verse on which this is based.

Romans 1:20
"For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities–his eternal power and divine nature–have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse."

This is giving away a little bit of the bible study lesson I'm doing next Tuesday, but basically, God has not put anything in Creation that would be a road block for someone coming to faith. Everything we see is evidence of him, not against him. I'll get off my soap box now.

Other than that, I've just been plain busy. I took a nap after I got home today, and went to Sho's for an hour. That was a little akward, it's a little hard to describe, but suffice to say, it was akward. And with that, I take me leave to continue playing Mario RPG.