AND THE LACK THEREOF*

*we put the "mmm" in communism

about

This is the personal blog of Tim. Here, Tim writes on anything he has enough inspiration to finish a post on. That usually ends up being matters of science, pop culture, technology, religion, and philosophy.

This blog is around nine years old, which is over a third of Tim's current age. Back in 2003, it was called "Of Tim: Tim's life - or lack thereof", and it was as bad as you might expect the blog of a freshman in high school to be. Tim hopes that his writing is a little better, these days.

Tim welcomes any input that you, the dear reader, might have. Comments are very much appreciated, especially if you have a dissenting opinion. If you'd like to learn more about Tim, you might want to see his facebook or google+.

Also: Tim is a very avid consumer of various sorts of music. You may be interested in his playlists!

To Cough, or to Sneeze.
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That is the question.

I have spent the last three days in utter misery, with some kind of viral agent coursing through my veins. I cough so much that I can now no longer play Ninja Gaiden Black, because it excites me too much; I start coughing too much and subsequently can't concentrate. The only time I'm not coughing is when I'm eating, and that's right now. To think I'm missing Ski Club and Robotics for this.

I fear my return to school, with the piles of work I'll surely have to do. More importantly is the ferocious and possibly hurtful words I will receive from teachers, concerning being absent for three days. You can take this to mean I will not be there tomorrow.

A few various things you should all know, via a bulleted list:
  • Robotics seasons started Monday, meaning I have to be there from 5-9 every weekday, and 9-5 on Saturdays. I will probably not go home in between the time school ends and Robotics begins. Wohoo for 13 hours in that blasted school.
  • I traded in Spartan for Mario Kart: Double Dash and Ninja Gaiden Black. The former is not as good as either of its predecessors, with the multiplayer being especially disappointing. The latter is absolutely amazing, and much more than I had hoped for. That's all I'll say about these for now.
  • I discovered these "Reese's Pieces Peanut Butter Candies" that are basically Reese's in M&M form. Highly delicious, although I haven't really been able to enjoy them due to my non-stop sneezing and coughing.
  • I finished Season 4 of the Sopranos. I have also realized that absolutely none of you have even watched this show, ever, so I've decided to stop mentioning this fact.
  • Apparantly sleep inertia induces a state that is worse than being drunk. Sleep inertia, for those who don't know, is the feeling you have in the morning, that most people rid themselves of with coffee or hot showers.
If this thing doesn't get any better tomorrow, I'm seeing the doctor on Saturday. Ugh.
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Haikus are Cliche,
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everyone is doing it.
Does that make it cool?

Magic 8-ball knows,
and perhaps your mom does too
I am redundant.

I ask the question:
"8-ball, why are haikus cool?"
"My sources say no."

An absurd response.
I am left with no answer.
I must do homework.
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An Inexorable Anxiety of the Heart
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I've had the feeling again.

The feeling where my heart sags and beats irregularly, where I can think of nothing but gloom and doom. It spews this angst, this attitude that eats humor and joy for lunch, and occasionally brunch. I've spent all of today complaining to my dad about how much I hate school and generally saying anything I can that will distance myself from my inability to be responsible for my work. Whether anything I said is true is unquestionably irrelevant. Joe Wilson and Judith Pastel's shortcomings as leaders of my educational system are not an excuse for my failures.

Tonight, I did my generic, meaningless plea to God. Something about me, a little more about my selfish needs, what I need, what I want, what must happen to me, complete with a delicious topping of insecerity and laziness. I knew I was wasting my breath, and I knew exactly what I needed to do. So I spent three hours not doing it. And I felt miserable for the whole three hours.

Once I finally got around to opening up my Bible, I read the last two chapters of Ecclesiastes. As I run across verse 8 through 10, I finally get the entire point of Ecclesiastes.

"However many years a man may live, let him enjoy them all. But let him remember the days of darkness, for they will be many. Everything to come is meaningless. Be happy, young man, while you are young, and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth. Follow the ways of your heart and whatever your eyes see, but know that for all these things God will bring you to judgment. So then, banish anxiety from your heart and cast off the troubles of your body, for youth and vigor are meaningless."

Meaningless. Life. Meaningless. Not pointless. Not worthless. Meaningless. This exact thing has been bugging me for two weeks straight. When I say bugging me, I really mean to say it's been controlling my actions and thought processes to a very unhealthy level. I had this circular train of thought going. I was confused over the whole concept of enjoyment and despair. If I eat something and enjoy it now, it's not making me happy later, so what's the point? Every enjoyable thing is temporary; games don't last forever, jokes stop being funny, movies get old. This is a basic fact that everyone knows but very few understand. These very few are what we call "content". I understood this. But I wasn't getting the "point" of enjoying anything at all because it's so temporary. That's where the answer comes in. They're meaningless. They don't provide meaning to my life. They don't give it meat. They don't give me any joy whatsoever. No material thing can do that (not even an HDTV). I've been relying on them for some kind of mental support so much these days.

I've got more on my mind, but some of it I can't say. Or won't, anyways. Good night, yon readers.
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/cry
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Is this a new fad, or something?

You suck.

All of you.

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It IS. I left my phone at Daniel's the other day. I get it back? It tells me "pwnt n00b" when I turn it on. You are all sick, sick people. To quote another, you should be downtown, up at the local asylum.

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