AND THE LACK THEREOF*

*we put the "mmm" in communism

about

This is the personal blog of Tim. Here, Tim writes on anything he has enough inspiration to finish a post on. That usually ends up being matters of science, pop culture, technology, religion, and philosophy.

This blog is around nine years old, which is over a third of Tim's current age. Back in 2003, it was called "Of Tim: Tim's life - or lack thereof", and it was as bad as you might expect the blog of a freshman in high school to be. Tim hopes that his writing is a little better, these days.

Tim welcomes any input that you, the dear reader, might have. Comments are very much appreciated, especially if you have a dissenting opinion. If you'd like to learn more about Tim, you might want to see his facebook or google+.

Also: Tim is a very avid consumer of various sorts of music. You may be interested in his playlists!

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Didn't actually go, but that's okay. I got plenty of candy at home, and Jonathan was here, so that was cool. Other than that, I played games, nothing happened...
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Happy day, happy day. Nothing went wrong, everything just fell right into place, amazingly enough. Everyone was all dressed up for tonight, but I wasn't. I just don't like getting dressed up in something I don't enjoy wearing. Besides, I'll just be wearing an ARMY jacket. Hehe. I'm such a cheapskate when it comes to stuff like Halloween. Today was cool though. Just hangin with my friends and stuff.

Lunches are becoming less and less fun. A few weeks ago, everybody was happy, we all sat at the same table, and it was just all really fun the entire time. But now it's just so boring. Everybody hates eachother for some stupid reason, or maybe not so stupid reason. I just don't understand how these people could have been such good friends, and then let stupid stuff tear them apart.

I found that article I was going to post yesterday, so here it is. I BELIEVE it was written by a woman, which is really strange, but it would make a lot of sense if it were. I've made my own edits to fit it closer to reality and/or my life.

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Why do men (usually) die first?
This is a question that has gone unanswered for centuries...... but, now we know.

If you put a woman on a pedestal and try to protect her from the rat race...you're a male chauvinist.
If you stay home and do the housework...you're a pansy.
If you work too hard...there's never any time for her.
If you don't work enough...you're a good-for-nothing bum.
If you get a promotion ahead of her..... it's favoritism.
If she gets a job ahead of you......it's equal opportunity.
If you mention how nice she looks......it's sexual harassment.
If you keep quiet..........it's male indifference.
If you cry............you're a wimp.
If you don't........you're an insensitive bastard.
If you make a decision without consulting her.........you're a chauvinist.
If she makes a decision without consulting you......she's a liberated woman.
If you ask her to do something she doesn't enjoy....... that's domination.
If she asks you.........it's a favor.
If you appreciate the female form and that little red dress......you're a pervert.
If you don't..............you're gay.
If you like a woman to shave her legs and keep in shape..............you're sexist.
If you don't.................you're unromantic.
If you keep yourself in shape................you're vain.
If you don't................you're a slob.
If you buy her flowers.............you're after something.
If you don't....................you're not thoughtful.
If you're proud of your achievements........you're full of yourself.
If you aren't....................you're not ambitious.
If she has a headache............she's tired.
If you have a headache.............you don't love her anymore.
If you want it too often.........you're obsessed.
If you don't................there must be someone else.

Men die first because they want to.

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And the middle line is indifference.
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Uneventful, but a good day. Definately not boring. But I'm waiting for something bad to happen, nothing bad has happened to me in the past week, which is too long for something bad NOT to happen. Oh well.

I saw a really good piece on why males die before females, but the blog that it was on is offline for now. Once I can get it, I'll post it here.
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Today was interesting, to say the least. Went to skool, came back unscathed. Of course, that is until I log on IM. Let's just piss some more people off, shall we? Critical of everything, not very nice, just not very Tim-like. Sigh, oh well. Not much I can do about it now.
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Well, interesting Tuesday. Skool was really boring, archery ended. Swimming is coming, and I dunno whether I'm gonna change for that or not. I hate locker rooms...

Daniel came over today, we played Halo, Raven Shield, and Vice City. Fun stuff.

Really bored now, not looking forward to hw...
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Boring day. Mondays just suck. I actually woke up on time though, which was really nice for a change. Gonna have to go to boy scouts soon, though. I've missed the last 2 weeks, so my parents and my friends want me to go. On the plus side, I'll see Daniel, and even better, he's gonne give me Raven Shield back. Should be fun. Anyways, I'm completely bored. Oh well. Oh and one more thing! Look at my l337 new stat counter at the left!

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Wow. Surreality. Today was cool. Church was compeltely uneventful. Not that same without Daniel, but I'm gonna have to adjust. Had like 5 chocolate chip muffins, they still haven't worn off. Sam came with me after church, we spent an entire 8 hours playing Vice City, Quake III, Halo, and CS., but with a difference - it was on my 27" TV. Yes, with my TV's audio. It's so wonderful. Halo graphix on 27" of visual goodness. Text below 20 point is hard to read, but who uses a TV for text? In any case, Sam undured me as I rearranged my room [again]. He's very patient to sit there as I spend 30 minutes moving my bed, my desk, computer, and night stand. My new set up is still being tweaked. Tomorrow I will probably switch the couch and bed, considering the bed sticks out REALLY far from the wall and stuff.......you'd have to see it to understand. In any case, it will be really cool once I finish re arranging.

As I was looking through my IHS Porgram of Studies, I dsicovered I can take Intoduction to Programming next year. SCORE!!! I will take it with Course 2, since I can't get into to Introduction to Programming 2 without Course 2. Whee! If I can take it, I'll be taking [AP] Computer Science in my senior year. Boo ya.

Cool day. Lots of homework to do...
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Ugh. Weird, messed up day. Gerg Wilson came over, and told me paintball work, but then asked if I wanted to go to a football game at Cornell. I said no, since I don't like football. So then he's like, let's play Halo PC. We go over to his office, and spend an hour or more trying to get it to work, failing completely. We then go to my house, he drives down and gets his computer, and we LAN. It was fun, but it took my entire day. I had been planning on other stuff, but no, he insisted. [sigh] A day that could have been good, wasted.
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Today was cool. Nothing amazing happened at skool. I got home, owned in Halo. I've started teaching noobs how to play. I set up 1v1 games, and give them tips as I kill them. It gets me better at my headshots, and helps improve gameplay. I really enjoy teaching people. They love the tips on how to get better. By the end theyve usually skill killed me one or two times.

I'm under the impression my parents are trying to get rid of my tomorrow. My dad was urging me to go the a Boy Scout campout, which I didn't have the equipment or the time to go on. Greg Wilson then comes over and asks me if I wanna play paintball. Normally I wouldn't suspect anything, but, I dunno. We have houseguests here for the weekend, which I suspect is part of the reason. They normally wouldn't care if I spent all my time playing Halo, but they're sleeping in MY room [grr]. In any case, the circumstances don't quite fit together. They may want to talk to these houseguests about me, and they've probably realized by now that I have SOME way of hearing the conversation in the house. I'm used to eavesdropping on all their conversations, as evil as that sounds. Oh well. A cool day, in any case.
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Today was interesting. Nothing of particular interest happened at skool. Though I believe I have a few stalkers on my hands. 0.o
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Lectures, lectures, and more lectures. I've never seen this many lectures in the space of 10 days. Wow. So many lectures. After my parents discovered my blog, my mom promptly addressed every issue I had in the past 10 days of blogs. She never mentioned my blog, but it was amazingly apparant she read my blog. As I suppressed a smirk, I asked her where she got all this, and she said someone told her. Wow. It's been a while since they've bulled their way around like that. My dad essentially forced me to go to Chinese Buffet with him, so he could give me a long lecture. The only thing I learned out of an entire hour of lecturing is that they believe I don't have the right to do crap, though that's not new. I also learned my family has a hsitory of depression. As if I didn't know that either, really. So much bull is coming towards me, it's hard not to be synical and just stop believing what everyone tells me. In any case, today has been a pain. I spent most of it recreating my blog here. I just hope very dearly my parents don't find this, again.
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I'm still working on this thing, but t's almost back to normal. I just gotta figure out the coding for the archives...
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This is the new blog, which is exactly the same only the URL is different. Hopefully this one won't be discovered by my parents. Grr, still very mad.
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This blog is henceforth discontinued. My parents found it, probably via a friend or a link. Oh, I am mad, so very mad. I don't have a place to spill my thoughts anymore. I'll make a new one, but how I'll get the link out to all my friends without my parents knowing will be difficult.......
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Interesting ending to an interesting day. Nothing amazing happened. Talked with people, did homework till late at night, depriving myself of sleep. I need sleep right now. I still haven't finished my homework.

The Young Life meeting was....................interesting. It wasn't much fun, you felt absolutely idiotical with all the parents standing right there. Not much fun. Just a big thing over not much. We'll probably be hosting it in our garage again this year, so I'll be going. Oh well.
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Interesting day. Nothing happened, at all. I got up, played Gunbound, Killed Louis Wu in Halo PC, pretty much lots of owntage. For those of you who don't know, Louis Wu is the webmaster for an extremely popular Halo website, to which I have a link to below and on the sidebar on the left.
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Church sucked. Today sucked. I managed only to sniff, but, I wish I just wasn't there. I went with Jesse and Ben and Nolan to shoot Jesse's new .22 and his other 20-gauge. It was fun, I had never fired a 20 gauge before. His dad shot a deer slug [that's a bullet] into a milk jug filled with water. He hadn't sighted it correctly, so it only skimmed it. It still shredded the jug though. Meanwhile its like 45 degrees out there. I've been tired all day, sniffing all day. Oh well. Definately could have been a better day. The shooting was an improvement on the day, at least.

Whatever. I need sleep. I think I'm just gonna do my math homework that I was supposed to do tonight at study hall tomorrow. I need another day of rest. Most of my weekend was spent worrying and being mad/sad. Not fun at all.
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[lost forevor]
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Interesting day. Nothing happened, at all. I got up, played Gunbound, Killed Louis Wu in Halo PC, pretty much lots of owntage. For those of you who don't know, Louis Wu is the webmaster for an extremely popular Halo website, to which I have a link to below and on the sidebar on the left.

halo.bungie.org

It's cool knowing You just killed a guy who's at least 26 years old and should be infinitely better at Halo considering he spends his life mastering a website that gets at least a hundred thousand page views daily. Very cool, actually. I can quote the line actually...

You killed ☼Louis Wu

Paladin killed ☼Louis Wu.

You were killed by Paladin.

Very common scripts today. Other than that, nothing of any importance happened.
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Wow. This was a strange day. I sort of felt...invisible. Which is different. It's not like people didn't notice me, it's just, like, my comments seemed without meaning or something. It's hard to define. I went nuts at lunch, but that's another story for a different day. Went through the day without much stress, considering last night, which I will now explain.
Yesterday I was planning on walking home and hanging around the commons for a half-hour or so today. Wait, that didn't make sense. Today I was planning on walking home and spending time on the commons, and I told my parents, but all of a sudden they come out with this bull. They don't think its safe for me to be on the commons. They really think I'm gonna get pulled in by some random stoner, smoke some weed, and get addicted? My parents are such...such....asses. After I argued with them for a good 20 minutes on the subject, they essentially said they don't believe I'm old enough to do anything on my own, whether they said it literally or not, it doesn't matter. I know this town well, I spent the entire summer biking places, and being very self-sufficient. Now when I want to hang with my friends at the commons, things change. I can't be trusted, its not safe, they think the people that are there are all druggies. Oh how I despise them, I truly do. My dad promptly gave me a 1 hour lecture after the arguement, which I was successful in completely ignoring. It's fun pissing them off, but why does he think 3 lectures in one week will help? Oh well, enough ranting on THAT subject.
The whole lecturing thing doesn't get to me really, it just becomes a bother. Only thing i fear about that is getting grounded. Problem is, I was too compliant for 2 years in a row, they thought they had complete control. They underestimated me, they really did. Both my brothers did the same thing I did, only they threw their acedemic lives with it. I don't intend to do that. I respect my brothers a great deal, but, I know some of their mistakes, which I don't intend on making.
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A pretty good day today. Despite earlier things I'm dealing with, it's not so bad, really.
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Really good day, excepting one big mistake I made to a friend at skool. Apparantly there was quite a bit of confusion on who I was talking about when I said this, so I've made a point of it not being anyone from church. I just wish I would think about the what I say a bit harder...being in a bad mood is never an excuse for being unkind.
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Not so tired now, I took a nap for 1 1/2 hours, which helped a bit. But now i feel all ..... ugh. I'd like to talk to my friends, but, none of them are on. :|
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Bad day. I stayed up till around, oh, 1 AM finishing up my Biology project which I printed at skool. I am so da...rn tired right now. I have a lot of homework to do, and I'm not really feeling any better than i was yesterday, but I'm glad skool's back again. I missed it. I didn't really accomplish anything over the weekend except perhaps procrastinating on important things. I still haven't mowed those lawns. I need a power nap before I do ANYTHING else.
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Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
Told you everything you loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly
But you don't wanna hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Nobody's Listening
Hand full of anger held in my chest
Nobody's listening
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat, and tears
Nobody's listening
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Nobody's listening

I should have listened to my better senses.
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On a different plane, I downloaded some Linkin Park music. Feels nice to have something different with a good tune. I've also decided to make the titles for all my posts smilies. From best to worst, here's a chart of what each smiley will represent.

^^ - best
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>.< - worst

I like the way those things express my feelings about stuff. They actually look like me, a bit. 0.o

I will try and edit my previous posts' titles to match this format.
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Day started out good, got most of my observation for Bio done. Went over to Sam's house, we played some games, nothing much happened. Day kinda fell apart though...[sigh] Oh well. Excuse me a moment as I kick the wall.

Nothing that concerns anyone else, only me, so I'm not sharing it. Though I will share my feelings on it, however. Sucks so bad to be in my positiong at this moment. [sigh] Why me? Why me? Why do I gotta be the one with this damn [pardon the curse, but no other word suffices in expressing my feelings right now...] curse? WHY? Any other problem would have been fine, but why do I gotta be the one that's ugly? I hate myself, I really do. I thought maybe it wasn't true, but now I KNOW it is, I really am my own enemy. [sigh] Back to where I started.

I need song lyrics right now that sufficiently describe my feelings...
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Today's been interesting. I played a -lot- of Halo...did my homework. Not terribly interesting, but that's alright. One wierd thing though, a girl I met via Zach, Zoe, and I were chatting over IM, and we thought we had never seen eachother, but last Saturday, when I was hanging at Sam's house, we went to the mall. Guess who. It was really freaky, because both of us came to the conclusion at the same time....here's a clip:

Steak220 (11:13:03 PM): did u go to the mall last saturday?
Zezinger (11:13:07 PM): yup
Zezinger (11:13:08 PM): wait
Zezinger (11:13:10 PM): that was you!
Steak220 (11:13:10 PM): I SAW YOU!!!
Steak220 (11:13:12 PM): ROFL
Zezinger (11:13:14 PM): yea!!!
Zezinger (11:13:15 PM): lmao

Just so random, though. Kinda woke me up though.
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I'm feeling pretty good right now. I got really ticked at myself at church, and if I had more time, I would have spent all of it pacing around. I wish I could have gone running, it's what I like to do to burn off energy. So far everything's quiet. Played Halo, drank some coke, talked to people. I feel....at peace.

I haven't finished any of my homework, project included, but I'm confident I can finish the project tomorrow. I WILL do my normal homework, tonight however. And besides that, I plan on an uneventful day. Tomorrow will be busy, unfortunately. Two customers to mow for, and it will definately end the mowing season. These people are crazy!
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Today's been interesting. I mowed a lawn, spent 25 minutes on my project, prolly gonna do my normal homework later. Not as bad as yesterday, but could be better. I'll probably finish my observation time tomorrow, write it up Monday. It wasn't so bad sitting out there, though. It's kinda nice just to take a second of doing absolutely NOTHING.
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I wish one of my friends from skool would, come over, or call me, or SOMETHING. I'm so bored! Not to mention I'm procrastinating. I've got a project that should take around 5 hours to complete. Hopefully I can get an A on it, though starting it this late will probably give me a B. But that's still good for a long term project.

[sigh] I need something to distract me for the next few hours...
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What a boring Friday. I've spent most of it playing games. My only hope to salvage it is if Ben has a party, which seems doubtful.

I'm testing out this new cut-down version of Blogger that allows me to post without logging in. It's pretty nifty. Got some paying work to do around the neighborhood, hopefully I'll end up with enough to pay off my dad.
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My wonderful 4 day weekend has arrived, and I can now mock my homeskooling friends as they slave until 2:00! Muhahaha...[power].

This week has been great. I'm finally getting to know some people at my skool. It always starts out with everybody you know being just acquaintences, but I'm getting past that point, and I'm really happy about it. Making new friends is truly one of the more enjoyable things in life.

Sam's gone for the weekend, which makes me pretty annoyed, for my own reasons. It's nice having a friend at church and crap that's in touch with reality. Hopefully I won't end up being too bored this weekend.

UPDATE: I'm really bored. This weekend aint looking so good. I've got a 10-hour research project to do this weekend, 2 lawns to mow, and the regular band of homework. :(

UPDATE: Really, really bored. Was reading a friends blog, and wow, I never realized what goes on in his life. To be in his position....I don't wanna think about it.
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I'm really bored, sort of. I have stuff to do, but I'm in that mood where I can't stop thinking about something and its really, really distracting. And it really doesn't help me do anything ELSE that coud be productive. Like...homework. [cough]

I'm really, really restless. And it aint caffeine.
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Well, I'm through another Tuesday at skool. Nothing happened, really...

Oh well.
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Well I survived my 5th Monday in school. I can't believe we're already over 1/8 through the school year. THAT'S A LONG WAY!

Today was just like every other day, though I now refuse to chew gum at school, but I certainly aint posting why. I didn't do much today, but my dad took me to Chinese Buffet. Prolly to try and set us on good terms or something. He's just becoming more and more annoying. Just like the "A" on my keyboard. I spilled Coke on my keyboard and its really aggravating how the keys react now. THEY STILL WORK THOUGH!

My mom gets back tonight. They had to fly seperate flights. I am not looking forward to her, either. I enjoy my lone wolf thing. Random note: The ad in my AIM posts in large letters: INTOLERABEL CRUELTY: IN theaters October 10th. WHO NAMES A MOVIE INTOLERABLE CRUELTY??? Whatever.
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The weekend at Sam's house was fun. I thought Sam and I would end up in our usual deadlock of 'What do u wanna do? I dunno, what do u wanna do?'. We went to the mall, I got Halo PC. That game is too much fun. I earned 20 bux by helping Sam clean his van. It was really, really sick. And not in a good way.

One thing I discovered over the past 3 days: Sam knows way too many girls. Way too many. It really sucks, none of them seem to notice me either. It's like "[Sam] Oh yeah, this is my friend Tim. [Me] Hello! [Random Girl] Uhh, hi. So Sam, blablabla..." NONE OF THEM NOTICE ME! [Grr]. I just dont have a very striking way with girls. I get along with the girls i know just fine, but making new friends that are girls is nearly impossible. Any females reading this wouldn't really understand.

Overall a fun week. My parents get home tomorrow, though. I am NOT looking forward to it. I really can't stand them. I don't HATE them, but the only good I see them doing for me is giving me food and clothes. I earn all my money on my own, its not like they ever give me any money. I can't wait till I can drive so I don't have to depend on them for transportation. Hopefully my dad won't bug me much this week. Though neither of my aprents are worse, they're equally horrific. My mom is annoying, nagging, and never shuts up about stupid stuff. My dad is prying, annoying, and clueless. They really are aggravating. I could rant on about my parents for another few hundred words or so, but I'll spare you people.
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Interesting past two weeks. Today's update: I'm off MY computer for a week [until Monday], so I'm on my mom and dad's. Probably won't post until Monday again, so this is a long one. I got Vice City working, but that was a week or so ago. Been having lots of fun with that. I should be getting Halo PC on Friday or Saturday, though it depends on whether Ben invites me to his next party. I put out a message to all my customers to pay up on the whopping $132 they owe me. 32 goes to getting Halo PC. The rest is for my dad. I've got a $30 EB card and $10 Best Buy card, and I've got $15 right now, so I'm covered. If worse comes to worse, I can just go for the money Jonathan offered and use my EB card and 15 bux. It's all good.

Concerning Daniel, Emma and Jesse, Daniel said he emailed Maria. He hasn't given me what her response was, but I'm going to be interested in hearing it. I'm not angry about it anymore, now that I know what went down. Hopefully should all be in the past in a few days. I didn't really gain much out of this experience, but I hope Daniel and Jesse learned something about me and my attitude. I can be fiesty sometimes, and when I get angry I show it. I know some of the things I said may not have been justified in my situation, but I felt they needed to be said in order to make my point at the time. I do appreciate y'all's concern over me, but too much concern is very definately not a good thing.

So, I've gone through Halo PC, money, Vice City, friend problems, what else do I need to cover? Oh yeah. I've been forced to move back upstairs into my closet, and I'll probably be staying up here for a while. I've moved our 13" TV up and my XBox and PS1 up too, but the connection on the TV is so awful its not really playable. If I could get a new adapter I might be set, but I don't have any. Oh well. At least this room has my clothes in it, and its not cold. Of course the only reason my other room was cold is because of the fact I leave the window open at night. Oddly enough, I sleep MUCH better when the outside air is cold, and I have enough coveres to keep me nice and cozy warm. It just puts me right to sleep. Heh, I can't wait for snow. I wont enjoy the commute in school and crap, but that's ok. So long as I can still wear my normal shoes without too much annoyance, it's not too bad. That's what lockers are for, right? Of course, now that it takes longer to get ready for school, it can take me anywhere from 15-20 minutes, depending on how much sleep I got the night before.

Wow. This was a LONG post. It should cover for the next week at least.